The Club I Don't Want to Be In


Today I am part of a club I don’t want to be in.  The club of moms and dads sitting in this surgery waiting room waiting for surgical results.  There is a mom and dad and two “big” sisters here with a toddler brother in surgery.  I wonder why.  Are they fearing a diagnosis, like me? 

I am sitting next to a sweet momma whose daughter, a year older than my Big, is having her Chemo port removed this morning.  Her daughter had a cancerous brain tumor that responded positively to chemo.  She is in remission.  But her journey was difficult and unpleasant.


I don’t want her story.  I don’t want my kid to have to suffer chemo.  I don’t want to develop that momma’s faith and trust in the way she had to develop her faith and trust.

But, I try to wait and trust…knowing God knows what I need, and what Big needs.  He is good.  His plan for Big is Good. 

Dr R. just came and talked to me.  He said the surgery went really well.  He HAND DELIVERED the nodes to the lab.  I am stunned by the personalized care he has given Big and the compassion he has shown to this scared momma.  I can’t imagine he does that for every case, but he did it for our case.  And I am so grateful for that gift from God.  I am so thankful for Dr R and his amazing team.

I will be heading back soon to be with my girl as she wakes up from anesthesia.  And we will resume our wait for answers. 

We are looking forward to the weekend.  Papa and Grandma are coming and we will have a chance for swimming and pizza and fun, no matter what the answer is.  And we keep praying for good results, for our own little miracle.

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  1. UnknownOctober 2, 2017 at 8:24 AM

    Thank God for that kind and thoughtful Dr! When I had a lobectomy the lab said they couldn't find a tumor or cancer but we knew it was there! And we also know that God healed me of cancer so to some unbelieving friends and family...I supposedly had an unnecessary surgery. I know my God healed me and my faith in Him and so many prayers was my comfort. I'm believing that our prayers have been heard by the Master and it is all in His Hands! Praying for all of you.❤🙏

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