The Small Song of Hope
“Hope” is the thing with
feathers -
That perches in the soul
-
And sings the tune
without the words -
And never stops - at all
-
And sweetest - in the
Gale - is heard -
And sore must be the
storm -
That could abash the
little Bird
That kept so many warm -
I’ve heard it in the
chillest land -
And on the strangest Sea
-
Yet - never - in
Extremity
It
asked a crumb - of me.
For a few weeks now I have been in the storm where it
was very hard to hear that little bird, “Hope.”
Things seemed so terribly foreboding for Big and her health. Every sign has been pointing us towards a
diagnosis I don’t want. And each step we
take, seemed a step closer.
But today I heard the very faint chirp of “Hope”
perched in my heart. Big’s nodes seem a
slight bit smaller. They are still there
and they are still bigger than they should be, but I do believe they are slightly
smaller.
And as I hear that small song of “Hope” springing up,
honestly, I try to silence it. Because I
have read that with a cancer diagnosis sometimes lymph nodes “wax and wane” in
size. Smaller nodes does not mean we are
out of the woods. And I know that even if they are smaller, SOMETHING is going
on with her health and we need to get to the bottom of it.
But no matter how hard I try to silent that little
bird of “Hope.” it insists on singing.
That song scares me.
I don’t want to get my hope up only to be crushed when we get results
from the biopsy scheduled for Monday.
Proverbs 13:12 says, “Hope deferred makes the heart
sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.” I don’t want that sick heart when I get the
results. I would rather not hope at all.
But that little chirp is there…. And so
we keep waiting….
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