PSA: Because I am looking out for you!



 
Don’t listen to the song Slow Down by Nicole Nordeman on the way home from your Big’s biopsy… or after any major medical procedure on any of your children… or after any major kid milestone… or maybe if you have kids at all.  If you choose to listen, please know you will probably UGLY CRY.  ON THE INTERSTATE.  WITH BIG.
 
I just bought the Nicole Nordeman CD, Every Mile Mattered, last week because Jen Hatmaker was talking about it, with Nicole, on her podcast.  I love Jen Hatmaker.  I love the little I know of Nicole Nordeman, and I loved hearing her on the podcast.  So I bought the CD.  I hadn’t listened to it all the way through, yet. 

 
Guys, I am not kidding you.  The song that started after I got Big in the car after she was released from surgery was Slow Down.  Big and I were on our way to lunch. And I started to cry.  The CD has the version where Nicole sings with her daughter, Pepper.  I was just slightly teary listening to the two of them sing until we got to verse two.
 
…Had to crawl
Before you walked
Before you ran
Before I knew it
You were teaching me
The only thing love can:
Hold hands through it
When it's scary, you've got me…
 
Cue the ugly cry.  As I type this I started crying again. “You were teaching me the only thing love can: hold hands through it.  When it’s scary, you’ve got me…”

And Big patted my leg and said, “Oh, mom…” with all the teenage expression one has after neck surgery….
 
…Please don't roll your eyes at me
I know I'm embarrassing
But someday you'll understand
You'll hold a little hand
Ask them if they can
Slow Down…
 
I used Nicole’s own words on my daughter and basically told her I was making her listen to this song if she ever became a mom.  She would get it then!
 
So PSA… listen to the song with caution… maybe not if you are in the car… if you have a new baby… if your kids just reached any milestone at all… if you love anyone who meets the afore mentioned criteria…
 
Unless you want to ugly cry.  Then cue the music….    Slow Down, Nicole Nordeman

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